This week has been the kind of week where I kind of amaze my self. It's been the kind of week where I can just get by, but only if I do one thing. Stay awake. And I did that, for about four days. I didn't give into the great satisfaction of sleep, for more than three hours at a time. I could not, my work did not allow for it. I am at school from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. every day due to my classes and working in the mailroom. With the exception of Monday I don't have to be there until 12:30 and Tuesday I don't get out until 6:30. This is what happen...

Sunday: Despite the fact that I had worked all weekend on homework, I still didn't get very much done because they were long projects. So I was up until about 5a.m.

Monday:I had manage to get woke up 8:30 tried to do more homework. Didn't do well, went to class. Then to work. After work I had to meet with my Ad & Graph team, and I was at the school until 9 at night. That night I still had a ton to do and so I didn't go to sleep.

Tuesday: Got to work sleeplessly at 7:45 a.m., worked, went to class, went to the next class. Got back around 6:30. Worked on homework. Headed back ate dinner, began to work on homework. Decided I wanted at least an hour or two of sleep. Went to sleep at 5:30 a.m.

Wednesday: Woke up at 7:30 and had to leave within 10 minutes to get to class at 8:00. Had class, skipped lunch to do more work from 11-12:30, more class after the break. Finally one more class after that. Headed back to the apartment. Got dinner with some friends. I took a break when I took a quick drive to Target to look for Nates Birthday gift with no success. Came back and again worked all night, no sleep.

Thursday: Got in the shower at 6 again sleeplessly. Got ready headed to the 6 hour class at 8a.m. had my lunch break, had the rest of the class until 3:30. Went to work right after, got out at 5. Drove to the apartment building so they could give me my new mailbox key, but they were not there even though they said they would be there until 6 p.m. and it was just after 5. Headed back to the apartment.

That is kind of when it happen, I had practically manage to stay on my feet, and drill myself into artwork, classes, and mail room work for at least 72 hours probably more. And other than dozing off well painting or during class for a few minutes at a time. And getting those 2 hours of sleep Tuesday... no naps, no sleep...
My eating habits got a little funky I tried to depend on the coffee, but after a certain point it didn't work. And I stopped drinking it because it made me feel worst. You know it's bad when people are telling you, 'you look stressed', or that 'your pupils are huge', or that 'yea, I kinda got the impression that you needed sleep.' Or when your friend is offering his scarf as a pillow so you can rest your head as you doze off for 20 minutes during the lunch break .

Tuesday was the day I felt like I wanted too lose it. That morning I could not find my keys, and I still had so much to do, and I ran to work and was still two minutes late, and left my coffee behind. Wanda offered to let me go home rest and work, but I told her no, I would stay. I agreed to work there and I am going to.

Thursday I crashed on my bed, as soon as I got back at 5:30 p.m., until 9 p.m. At 9 I woke up and started my painting homework. Got done at 5 a.m. was suppose to wake up at 6. Didn't wake until 10. Flipped out, just made it to class to turn it in. Then I worked in the mail room until class at 3:30. After class I took care of some stuff. Went to Polaris to get got Nathan's gift. Baught myself a shirt and The Nightmare Before Christmas on DVD. Had some Stromboli, then came home... Maggie and I did dishes and I made Nate's cake for tomorrow.

Surviving this week was hard on me in every way and the no sleep just multiplied everything. It drained me physically, making me soar, aches, headaches, random nauseated feelings. Mentally. because I was so scared I wouldn't finish everything and I was so stressed out. And emotionally too, but I learned a lot about myself.
One, that I will do what I have too no matter what it takes
Two that I am probably capable of more than I even thought.
Three that I can stick it out.

Now I'm gonna go sleep for a week. Cause I'm still so so so tiered. Night friends.